...When I was 19 Years Old and Depressed...

When I was 19 Years Old, I was Struggling with Many Facets of Life. Those of You Who are the Closest to Me KNOW All about it.

Internally, I was Struggling and Fighting AGAINST My Sexuality. I wanted to LEAVE Temple University, in Philly, and Strictly focus on Filmmaking, at an Arts College. I did NOT have a Car, had Credit Card Debt, and was just UNHAPPY as All Hell!

Then, on the Night of July 19, 1999, after spending the ENTIRE Day in Bed; Unbathed, UnHappy and Starving, I turned on VH1. The network was airing a *BEHIND THE MUSIC* Special, starring the Legendary Rock GOD, LENNY KRAVITZ. Though Our Lives were DIFFERENT; and My interest in Filmmaking didnt Directly Correlate to his Youthful Passions towards Music, I STILL Connected to him; in ways that cross the boundaries of a Spiritual OneNess.

It was Hearing this Song; 'IT AINT OVER TIL ITS OVER', that resurrected Me from the FUNK I was Living in. Though Lenny is talking about his Broken relationship with then Ex-Wife, and Love-of-his-Life, Lisa Bonet, in the Lyrics, I translated the Lyrics to directly pertain to My Life; at that Moment in Time. IT AINT OVER (My Life), until I Give Up and STOP Trying, STOP Dreaming, and STOP Xisting.

To this Day, 'IT AINT OVER TIL ITS OVER' is My Favorite Song of ALL Time* ANYWHERE I go and venture off to, Im STOPPED in My Tracks when this Song Plays. NYASHA had No Other Choice but to LOVE it as well. I Played this Song 24 Hours a Day, 7 Days Per Week...and CRIED...and PRAYED...and CRIED Some More.

Here I am NOW*...6 Years Later~

...Inspired to MOVE ON~