Its 10:41pm, and as I am Posting My Current State of Mind before the ENTIRE World to Peruse, I am eating a DELICIOUS, Cinnamon Raisin Bagel, with I CANT BELIEVE ITS NOT BUTTER, and drinking a Cup of this NEW, Peach Flavored, Green Tea that I picked up tonight as I was doing My LONG OVERDUE Grocery Shopping. I KNOW that I have NOT been Up-to-Date with My Posts. However, this Week has been HELLA Busy for Me. As Rob Richie would Say...Ive been 'Saving the World'. YEA RIGHT. Ive probably Worked 12 Hour Days, EVERY SINGLE DAY, aside from Yesterday, and even then, as I told Myself I would come home and rest, I Did Not. Syrai Moved to Washington, DC Tonight, and I let him borrow My Car Last Night, as I Slept, to transport the Bulk of his Belongings to Abby's House. I Cant Say that Im Sad or Depressed about his Move, because he's ONLY a 30-45 Minute Drive Away. Our 2 Year Anniversary, in being in One Anothers Lives, is Next Tuesday. WOW* Its AMAZING that it has ONLY been 2 Years, because it CLEARLY Feels like a LIFETIME. I THINK that we are going to Return to the ORIGINAL Spot we first Dined Together; of which, Ive probably NOT been to Since. LoL* I Dropped him Off at the Train Station a few Hours ago, for I had NO Energy to Drive back down 295, even though he offered to Drive Up. As I Stated, this past week has been HELLA Busy.I was 'SUPPOSE' to do Grocery Shopping Last Sunday. I was so DRAINED and OVER IT, from Releasing ALL of those Freakn HalloWeen Shots, that I simply ESCAPED to JayMals house for the Night. He and I watched Desperate Housewives Together, ate Italian Cold Cut Subs, and Washed My Clothes. Iyonna told Me that through her Forensic Studies, she has discovered that Bodily Fluids ARE INDEED Shared in Common Used Washing Machines and Dryers. GROSS! Thats XACTLY WHY I NEVER use the Washers or Dryers in my building. I drive 15-20 Minutes, from here in Owings Mills, to Manhattan Avenue; where Queen Zakiya, King Locy, and Princess Nyasha Lumumba reside. YES* However, Last Sunday, I was so Tired, that I simply drove the 3 and 1/2 Minute Distance to JayMals Place. He was SO SWEET to Me...which is a Rarity. I MUST Admit, However, that his Tough and Brutal Love keeps Me a Lil Bit Humbled and Grounded. HA!
So, Anyways...
Though I VOWED to NOT Make any Special Public and/or Public Appearances for the Next 2-3 Months, Im going to have to renig on that One. To My Grand, and Illustrious SURPRISE, I received the Most XQUISITE and DELICATELY Presented Invitation, to My Christina's Birthday Dinner Party. The Soiree is being held Tomorrow Night at COPRAS, with Cocktails and Dancing to Follow, at PAZOS. Ive Never dined at Copras, but I have enjoyed the SeXy, Adult- Only ambiance of PAZOS, circa, May, 2006; in Celebration of another Birthday held to Honor the Living Legacy of My Shevonne. I have NO IDEA What Ill be wearing 2morrow Night, BUT...I would NEVER Miss an XCLusive Birthday Celebration for One of My Leading Ladies. LUCKILY, the Dinner BEGINS at 9:30pm. I will be in attendance of a Child Development Conference, ALL FREAKN DAY Tomorrow, to be followed by a Mandatory Client Session. UGH* So, Im going to be EXTREMELY Tired and Out-of-It. Once I see Chrissy, However, adorned in something, BETSEY JOHNSON, Im SURE that Ill perk Up and start taking 2.1 Million Photos of the Evening. Okay...So, NOW, Im getting XCITED! I just LOVE and ADORE My Living Legacies.
Meanwhile, Ive been receiving so MANY emails lately from Various, Random Dudes, in reference to My 'Status' and 'Credentials', etc. Umm...which in turn has led Me to Evaluate the Fact that I am Indeed SINGLE.
You Know, to be completely HONEST, I would NOT make a GOOD Boyfriend to too Many People. Seriously. Im NOT going to answer My Cell Phone for Conversation. Im NOT going to go OUT on DATES every Friday and/or Saturday Night. Im Definitely NOT going to have Sex More than Once per week; if that, and I REFUSE to spend My Nights sleeping in a bed, other than My own. I DO NOT Rest Easy when someone else is Laying beside Me. I NEVER HAVE. I Dont Know. I THINK that Dudes See Me in these Photos, or Meet Me in Passing, and ASSUME that Life alongside My Shoulder would be Everything that He Could Ever Want. LOL*
W-R-O-N-G!~
I was talking to Shevonne or Wynter, and Nyasha about this Topic, recently. What I Wouldnt Mind Having in My Life, at this Moment in time, would ideally be a 'Helper'/'Assistant'...a Dude Who is 30-40 Years Old. He would HAVE to HAVE a Solid and Stable Group of Friends Who he spends an Immense amount of time with, or a Hobby that keeps him Ultra Occupied. I say this because I command at least 9-12 Hours Per Day of just XEM Time. Seriously. People Assume that Im Always Out and About, when Im CLEARLY, at Home; Reading, Writing, Drinking Tea, Editing Photos, Searching Entertainment Blogs, Watching Movies, ALONE, and eating Take Out, ALONE. I DONT think I know How to Co-Exist, any Longer, with Someone else, All- Up- and- Through My Space. The Thing Is...I WANT Someone Else to TAKE CONTROL of the Relationship. I was once Involved in a relationship where I had to be So In-Control of things, as so Everything wouldnt Spiral Out-of-Control. I was in Charge of so Many aspects of the Relationship, that I often times just became so Overwhelmed and Frustrated.
I AM Willing to be Supportive of My Dudes Dreams; Short Term and Long. I AM Willing to Help Him Face his Darkest Hours, as I would Xpect the Same. I AM Willing to tend to him when He is Sick, and to Play with him when he is Well. I AM Willing to Do Museums, Parks. Long Car Rides, Dinners at Home, BlockBuster Nights, Zoo Trips, Safari Rides, Holiday Vacations, etc....as Long as He Gives Me a LOT of SPACE~
I DONT KNOW. IF God Sent Me a Cultured, Confident, fairly Aggressive Dude Who could ACCEPT My LifeStyle, and Who could TRULY Teach Me about Ways of Life that are currently Unfamiliar to Me, I would DEFINITELY Latch on to him; in spite of a Physical Appearance that May Not Immediately Attract Me. U Know? I tend to ATTRACT the 'SAME' Types of 18-22 Year Olds, Who listen to BeYonce All Day, Play on MySpace for Endless Hours; Who think that TGIFridays is Fine Dining, and Who BLOW MY PHONES UP to the High Heavens, asking, 'What u Doin Cutie?' OMG!~ LEAVE ME ALONE! LoL*
...Its Adorable, SOMETIMES.
So...to Answer ALL of the Inquiries, YES...I Am Open to Dating. However, I DOUBT, Very Seriously, that Anyone can actually deal with the Fact that I ENJOY ALL of My Personal Time and Personal Space, and will NOT Sacrifice ANY OF IT, for the Sake of a Romantic Relationship. Sorry...I just Wont. Ill LOVE YOU and Treat You like a Prince; Emotionally, Spiritually, Financially...but Youre NOT going to See Me Every Single Day of Our Lives Together. I Made that Mistake ONCE in My Life. Once I walked away from the situation, I had to Relearn Myself, My Friends and My Real Life. It took a Year or So. NEVER Again.
...and Believe it or NOT, I have Yet to see the Critically Acclaimed, 'AMERICAN GANGSTER'. I Know that EVERYONE else has gotten into it, for it garnered $47 Million Dollars Last Weekend; forging it as the Frontrunner in Box Office Sales. I can NOT wait to see IF Denzel, Russel Crowe, or Director, Ridley Scott, receive Oscar Nominations in January, for this Stellar, Cinematic Project. I WILL be going to see the Movie, THIS WEEKEND. I have it on DVD Now, but have REFUSED to watch it. NOW that the Crowd should have DIED DOWN, I Can Enjoy it; Visually and Artistically.
ALSO, I am So Proud of Miss. Spears. The 'BLACKOUT' album Sold 290,000 Copies in its FIRST Week; a la, NO Formal Promotion, Press, Interviews, or Live Showcases. Britney WOULD HAVE Premiered at Number 1 on The Billboard Charts. However, INTENTIONALLY, the Billboard Nielsen Scan Committee, for the FIRST TIME in 21 Years, 'decided' to ALLOW a CD Compilation that was ONLY SOLD by One retailer, to be counted in the Billboard Tally. OF COURSE this was ALL done to Spite Britney. This Marks the FIRST TIME in her Musical, PoP Career that any of her albums have EVER Premiered at Number 2*
O WoW! Its Clearly 11:24pm, and I am SO Freakn SLEEPY! Im Parking My Car at the Mt.Washington Light Rail Stop in the Morning and taking the Light Rail into the City for this Conference. I am SO Saving Money like CRAZY right Now, So Im cutting ALL Costs. Paying $24 to Park Downtown, All Day, in some Greasy Garage, is NOT Fixed into My Weekly Budget. NO SIR!
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